Few lines from the song Maut which just so well portray the feeling of death….
Jeena to maut na jaane kab aayega
Kise bulaake yeh kise le jaayega
Maut, sirf raahein badal jaate hai
Maut, naye daur khul jaate hai
Maut, lena dena tab pata chalta hai
Maut, kamaai ka hajara milta hai
Bekhabar hai, sawaal yeh nishaan hai
Maut, kaise ban gayi majboori hai yeh
Maut, lamhe ruk jaate jab yeh aati
Maut, saanson ko baahon mein leke jaati
Jeena toofaani hai, baaqi sab bayaani hai
Jhooth leke jaati hai zindagi
Mera bulaava hai, yeh zindagi ka daava hai
Mujhe bulaaye yeh tujhe bhi bulaaye
Banke hawa muskuraaye
Meri maut, teri maut, iski uski sab ki bas
Just how unexpectedly death comes… You can never predict whether you ae going to see the same individual the next day with whom you are talking at the instant. In last 15 days i have come to know of prematurely death of two people whom i didnt know much but even then the death of a young person sure is a tragedy and most of all the effect it would have had on their parents. Now i just feel like i should start living for the day today.. Kya pata “Kal Ho Na Ho”!!! but just cant think of myself being dead at this age not that i fear being dead that much but the main fear i have is what will happen to my family and friends when i was so much moved by the death of a person whom i hardly knew. Some 15 days back a very distant cousin of mine expired and though i had never had a chance to meet him or talk to him as far as i remember though my mother told me that i have met him many times when i was very young but i have no idea who he was and how he looked but the news of his demise disturbed me for 2-3 days and i just cant imagine what would happen if someone really close to me dies. The main problem i was suffering at that time was that some how the thought of death of one of my very neaar and dear cousin was crossing my mind almost constantly i just couldnt get my mind of it. Thankfully i havent faced the death of any of my relative(barring the death of my maternal grand father but i was very young back then so no remembrances or memory of him for me) or friend as of now and my mind shudders at the thought of such a tragedy and i just wish that i dont have to face such a thing but alas this can’t be, death is a truth of our life which we have to face and just can’t run away from it.
Two days back i came to know of death of another person whom i didnt know much but had senn her and talked to her a bit during felicity. Actually she was a girl named Ruchika from NIFT who came to our college and won the solo dancing event. She had also partcipated in Mr & Ms. Felicity and i was there during her interview round and few of my friends who interacted with her told me that she was a sweet person and not a typical NIFTian. Just pains my heart to see someone so young dying.
If i would be given a death wish i would wish that my friends should come to know of my death when i die.. When i had a near death experience abt which i have written earlier, i was thinking that what would my friends think of me, they will think that i have deserted them and the friends which i had for life will nevr think abt me again. There will be no problem with family coz they will come to know about me but most of my friends will never come to know about me and my death… that was really a very horrific experience. I just want God to tell me one month in advance when i am going to die so that i can do what i want, i can tell people how important they are to me. thank severla people for what they have done to me.. Hey god if you are anywhere and are thiking of calling me to you sometime soon then please grant me this death wish and tell me one month in advance. Even villians grant one last wish before death and you are the all good and powerful God…..
I just pray for the two people may God bless their souls and give strength to their families.
Song of the day – : Maut by Lucky Ali from Kaante
PS1:- Not in a mood to write any Ps..